I Want to be a Good Person

I try to be. I want to be. I want to do the right thing. I've been told that to be a good person I needed to hold a certain set of beliefs. Believing is not that hard. I can do that. That will be an easy way to prove that I'm a good person.

Part of my beliefs say that sex outside of marriage is wrong. I don't want to do the wrong thing so I won't do that.

But it's so hard to deny it completely. All those thoughts and attractions. I know it is wrong, but the more I resist expressing myself the harder it gets. That makes me feel bad, feel weak.

So I'll be strong! I'll be strong in the name of my beliefs because I want to be good. I will choose to hate my drives, suppress my natural drives with the utmost force. This will prove beyond a doubt that I would do anything requested of me in order to be a good person.

And I believe it is the right thing to do. What could possibly go wrong?

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